SAMURAI
Practice the same swing 10 million times
I don't understand this fetish with "fear of failure" people seem to have. so many people who have started doing the thing they want to pursue later in life will talk about going the safe route because they are afraid of failure. Don't misunderstand me, I do understand a paralyzing fear which prevents me from doing what I want to do, but it isn't fear of failure. It's fear of success. Failure is the default position. You already are failing to do all the things you aren't trying. In starting to try something you are destined to fail it a thousand times before getting it right. I have failed more times at more things than I can possibly ever know, and that's all the things that I have consciously attempted. Never mind all the permutations of things I haven't even bothered with, but want to, and still more the universe of things I have no intention of ever trying. Failure is the air I breathe. It's the water in which I swim. It's the ground beneath my feet. It's my daily bread, and it's my blanket and pillow when I need to sleep. Failure is peace, it's security, is comfortable. Why on earth would I be afraid of failure? Now I can understand an awareness of looming disappointment in being invested in something and it not going as intended. But to call that fear? I wouldn't. I expect disappointment. It's a visit from an old friend who has drifted away and no longer someone I can relate to, a few hours or days of shooting the shit, before a return to normalcy. Success on the other hand. It's an entirely different beast. Success leads into entirely new horizons. Success is unpredictable in it's scale. Success also has this giddy floaty-ness that dispels rational thought, which can be addictive to the mind. minor successes are often enough and predictable enough to understand. there is little to fear from a minor success. the fear encroaches because that minor success can turn into a major success or even a superlative success nearly randomly. There is no extra effort on the doers part in differentiating the level. it happens by the pure random chance of algorithms, and mood. if minor successes are the goal then a status quo changing major success looms there constantly possible. major successes and superlative successes demand the doer to 'try again' to achieve it. The proverbial carrot on a stick. Expectation. and that giddy feeling reducing rationality lowers stats all around. gamblers can't quit after a big win. They have to chase that high. eschew success. embrace failure.
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